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The Hate Will Keep Us Warm
“The hate will keep us warm”
I whisper to myself, as if it's my mantra, my reason.
Outside, you will never see the cracks. I'll make sure you never see them.
Inside no storm rages, no gale force winds rock my very soul. No hellfire consumes me to my very core.
No, nothing is there but shadow, not darkness, but not light. Almost as if it's the absence of both.
It'll chill you to your very bones if you let it. It can shatter your very foundation if you slip. And if you attempt to pierce this veil, no treasure is to be found. No if you search within my very being, my soul, all that is there is an empty husk. Pieces, strewn about, as if someone was trying to forget what had once been there. The shroud is unacceptable, you will lose your way the very moment you step within it. Those who do, cry out in frustration and give up. Those who do, never try to find what's truly hidden in the shadow. They leave, and take what little warmth they brought with them.
So I tell you: No, my
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Worth Fighting for
A picturesque moment:
A child clinging to his legs,
His wife keeping him close, lips locked in that brief moment in time.
That's what he fights for. To go home again. To his family.
Yet that is all you will ever see, that picture multiplied through out your life. You see the family. You see the loving father, husband, fiancee. You see his reason, his courage, his sacrifice.
But you will never see mine.
My resolve. My pain. My reason.
You don't see me, the one that's already left the crowd. The one that's ignored.
They say that man is courageous, for not being here with his family. And I agree.
But what does that make me? The one who doesn't have any of that? What's the source of my courage, the reason of my being? Why do I go and fight if I do not have what those men have? Do I lack something critical?  Something that makes these men more superior? What do I fight for? I ask you, I implore you, I plead to you!?
What is it that I have... what is it that I strive for?
Some say the f
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My Fear...
Why did it end, God?
'Because I have a plan for you'
But why? Why must I be the one to suffer?
'In time you will see, there will be one for you'
And so I did, I continued to live, survive, try.
But then came another moment, an irreversible one,
the kind you can't walk away from.
God, why did I die?
'It was part of the plan'
but you said I'd find someone. You said I'd have a family
'I'm sorry son, but you of all people should know:
Plans never go according to plan'
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To Kill a Soldier
To kill a soldier
one does not need bullets,
nor does he need bombs, or tanks.
All that is needed to kill him...
Is to tell him he has nothing.
Tell him his loved ones left him,
tell him his family abandoned him.
Tell him he is worthless.
He will break, he will falter.
Then soon, he will die. Alone.
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No Longer strong
Another tour another time, only this time it would be much more different.
We marched off that plane holding our heads up high, our duffels by our side.
The air felt cool, refreshing and inviting. But it didn't replace the guilt that hung in my chest.
The crowd roared as we made our appearance, to which I felt like a heathen, something that shouldn't belong.
That's when I saw her. Her face was soft, she stood plainly among the cheering crowd. She was easy for me to to pick out among the people.  As we broke to greet them, I stood before her,face to face.
Images flooded my head and began to show on my face.
I broke down before her, my head cradled in her shoulder. The tears flowed freely as I choked out 'I'm sorry'.
She stood there holding this broken man, who to everyone else, probably thought they were lovers. We were far from it though.
No one else would understand why I cried, no one but my brethren who fought alongside me.
My best friend, my brother had died... 
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I don't know what to say exactly: that I'm back, but I never truly left.

I have a major life change going on and I'd like some tips or pointers on this matter.
I'm out of the Army now, honorably, and now I don't know what to do with myself...
I guess what I'm saying is... That I don't know what my purpose is anymore.
  • Listening to: gnash - tell me it's okay
  • Reading: my empty resume
  • Watching: time going by
  • Playing: nothing
  • Eating: nothing
  • Drinking: Water

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Im 'moribundum seminio... I'm a dying breed
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Current Residence: El Paso, TX

"You're Citadel men, you have no penchant for failure, you wear the ring, you never let a friend down, you will be good fathers, husbands, and leaders in the armed forces and industry, those around you will forever be attracted to the shining light in your lives, and you will guide others in your path of success, you are strong in heart, body, and mind. You have deep interests in protecting such things as honor, fidelity, and all matters unmaterial in nature. Your virtues will matter not only in wealth, but in the richness of family, you are the last of the knights" -President Ronald Reagan
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KreepingSpawn Featured By Owner Feb 26, 2016  Professional Digital Artist
Thanks for the :+fav:, dude!  ;)

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NobleCrimson Featured By Owner Jun 27, 2014  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Thx for the watch ^_^
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OpticalOctavius Featured By Owner Mar 19, 2014  Hobbyist Photographer
Thanks for the favorite and comment. I am going to take a look at your work. 
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WotanTyger Featured By Owner Feb 13, 2014  Hobbyist Writer
Thank you for the fave. Have a llama. :)
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KreepingSpawn Featured By Owner Dec 31, 2013  Professional Digital Artist
:cake::tea:
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KuroShimigami Featured By Owner Jul 20, 2013  Student General Artist
Thank you the watch. I love all your work by the way.
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CasualtyOfWar Featured By Owner Jul 21, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
No problem!  And thank you, though I've been lacking in the work department. So far a bunch of my stuff has been photos of weapons and gear unfortunately. I'll ne getting back to other types of media soon.
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KuroShimigami Featured By Owner Jul 21, 2013  Student General Artist
I personally happen to enjoy seeing the photos of the weapons and gear that you use so there's no rush to get back to your other forms of media! I enjoy all of it!
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NicholasWatersArt Featured By Owner May 11, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
Thanks for the watch.
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FoxMcknight Featured By Owner Mar 25, 2013
Thanks for the fav'!! ^^
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