CasualtyOfWar

Years ago, I was a young man trying my best as I joined the military. I believed I wouldn't see past my 23rd birthday. I was not alone but alone at the same time, for a very long time. I thought this would be the end of my story. I accepted my fate to be just another number. A statistic that will be used to either argue for or against people. I figured that I would finally have redemption for my perceived wrongs that I committed. Fast forward to today. I've lived past my expected expiration date. So much has happened and hopefully so much more. I continue to serve but in a different capacity. I'm still hated by others by the uniforms I wear and not by the content of my character or my deeds. I'll be a father soon. Something I never expected would happen in my life time. I do not feel as empty any more. But a new anxiety has crept into me. I do not feel the same brokenness that I did as a young man. I've seen life and death right in front of me. I've seen sorrow, anger, and hatred on

I don't know what to say exactly: that I'm back, but I never truly left. I have a major life change going on and I'd like some tips or pointers on this matter. I'm out of the Army now, honorably, and now I don't know what to do with myself... I guess what I'm saying is... That I don't know what my purpose is anymore.

First, Let me start by saying thank you to all of you who replied and provided me advice to my predicament earlier. I find it funny for a "non-combat deployment" (I say that because there's always Russia and Syria on the doorstep) This has been a very rough couple of months. I won't recap about the events, but again, I just wanted to say thank you to you all. Thank You for sticking by me, even when I haven't been as active as I used to be. Looking back from where I started to where I am now... Well let's just say there's still some more mountains to climb. I'm glad to have met you all, both here and in person. I hope to actually meet you all